A Thoughtful Day

Monday was a day with a lot of thinking, but in a good kind of way. I woke up pretty exhausted because of my hiking adventures on Sunday, and it was rather difficult to drag myself out of bed. I got ready in a rush because I woke up late, but my mom drove me to school which was nice because I didn't have to bus. 

I got a lot of work done at school, which was good. There is one girl in my class who has severe anxiety, and she was really upset about something yesterday and she was crying in class. I wanted to help her, so I showed her a picture of a cute kitten on my phone to try and cheer her up a little. I don't know if it worked, but at least I tried. 

Co-op was not great. I was instructed to make a certain type of Easter cards for the kids to decorate, but I could not for the life of me figure out how to do it. I had some really major anxiety because I was sure that my supervisors were going to be really really angry and maybe fire me because I didn't do what they asked. Me and another girl who does co-op with me ended up asking them how to do it, and finally together we figured it out. But then I spent the whole time thinking that my supervisor was angry at me and I felt really stressed and it kind of put a damper on my shift. 

When I left to bus home, it was pouring rain and I didn't have an umbrella so I got pretty soaked. On the bus a girl got on the bus who looked like a girl that I met when I was in mental health inpatient at the hospital. It wasn't her, but It really made me think about inpatient again. And I thought about how in some ways I really miss inpatient, because you really don't have to deal with life when you are in the hospital. Obviously there are a whole lot of things I did not like at all about inpatient (the food, being locked in, no privacy, no computer, no life, the list goes on), and I would never want to back to that place or that time in my life. It just made me think about it. 

In the evening I went to Starbucks to get some homework done, and I got quite a lot done. And over Facebook I had an interesting conversation with N about conformity. It turned eventually into a conversation about zombies, but it was nice to have an actually intelligent conversation. 

When I went home I had a phone call with N, and made food. Then I headed to bed and listened to music for a while.