Sunday Adventures

Sunday was an amazing day. I spent the morning doing a science experiment (limiting reagents), which science always puts me In a good mood of course. 

Then N came over and we went on a massive adventure!! He lives about a 20 minute drive away from me, so since we both like hiking a lot we decided to walk from my house to his house. And it was awesome! It took about 7 hours, so it was really really intense but so much fun. And I couldn't have picked a better person to do it with. We went on this massive trail that stretches across a big portion of the province, and he knew the trail pretty well and it was very nice in the woods. It was pretty hot, so I had to wear t-shirt which was scary because of the scars on my arms. But I did my best just not to worry about it, I know for sure that N won't judge me for it anyway (he self harms too), and when we got to his house and his family saw the scars they didn't say anything so maybe they judged me but oh well. N brought along something called jiffy pop, which is basically popcorn you can make on a camp stove. So we stopped at the edge of a road part way there and just relaxed in the beautiful weather eating popcorn. Then when we got close to his house we went to this little cliff area that has a beautiful view of the city (the picture really doesn't do it justice), and it was dark and you could see all the lights. And we made more jiffy pop, and then we just lay down on the rock beside each other staring at the sky and the lights and it was heaven. And the sky was cloudy, and I remember looking at the moon and thinking it looked like it was under water. I just felt so happy in that moment, just so content and peaceful. I need more moments like that in my life. Moments where things are just..good. I don't know how to do that though. Anyway when we got to his house it was basically just the biggest feeling of accomplishment and we both agreed that we were pretty awesome for doing that. N also told me that he is thinking of going to university at the one that is close to where we live, instead of the one that Is a few hours away. Which was good because it would be possible for us to still be friends, but also bad because it gives me false hope about a relationship with him. I used to use him leaving In the fall to convince myself I couldn't date him but now he might actually still be around. So I don't know what to do. I wish I knew how he feels about me. 

I was so exhausted by the time I got home that I basically just fell right into bed and asleep. It pretty much took up my whole day, so I don't really have anything else to write about.