Beginnings

Hello world (or whoever may read this),

Welcome to my blog, a journal of my recovery from mental illness. I am going to make an effort to post everyday, simply talking about my day and reflecting any thoughts or experiences. Some of my posts may be completely random, and some may be just a boring outline of my day, but I will try and post at least some interesting or relatable things. Anyway I hope if you are reading this you will enjoy my blog! Now to begin with a recap of today....

Today was a good day as far as good days go. I didn't go to school today, so I spent the morning on tumblr and walked for an hour on the treadmill. I have been doing very well with getting exercise recently, which I'm sure will help with my mood.

At noon I left to walk to my appointment with my psychologist. She was located at a different hospital today and last week, so the appointment was within walking distance unlike the normal location, so I walked the hour to my appointment. I had a better session with her today than in previous weeks. I have been being a bit stubborn (or willful as she would call it) and our conversations have not been really going anywhere, but today I felt like we were back on the same page and we actually did some good problem solving around the issues currently bothering me. It went better partly because I was not in such an agitated mood as I was the last weeks, because I am back on my mood-stabilizing medication (which I stopped taking for a few weeks and hence had some crazy up and down moods). We talked about how relationship problems seem to be a big trigger for my low moods and also my cutting. She said that we will start discussing my relationship issues (including friendships and family relationships) in greater depth next week, because it seems to be a big problem for me. The last ten minutes of the session we did a mindfulness activity and went for a walk, which was nice. I enjoyed it, and I think my psychologist was glad to get outside and out of the hospital.

After I saw my psychologist, my dad picked me up and we went to DBT group therapy. The group that I am in the parents are asked to participate, so my dad comes with me. At group we learned about accumulating positive activities. We got two pages filled with a list of positive activities, and part of our homework is to try and do one activity each day. We also learned about setting short term and long term goals, and focusing on the positive side of things instead of just the negative. It was an interesting lesson and I actually really liked it. I think it will be helpful for me.

After group my dad and I went to Target to get me some new sneakers (mine have holes in them). So I got some red canvas sneakers that look pretty similar to the ones I had before. I also got a box of air dye. I am planning on dying my hair a nice red colour, which I am pretty excited about. I have never died all of my hair before so It is a little bit scary but I hope I will like it.

When I came home I went jogging with my sister, and had dinner. Then I basically just sat on my computer chatting with my best friend (I will henceforth refer to my best friend as N, and I should state for the record that N is my main friend right now and also happens to be my crush), listening to music, and blogging on tumblr. That is mostly what I've done for the rest of the night, because I have had a busy few days and I thought it would be nice just to relax. I talked with N about lots of random stuff as always, but also about what happened yesterday (both of us had cutting incidents yesterday). I am pretty worried about him, he has been self harming a lot lately.

I should probably go to bed now, because I have to go to school early tomorrow morning. So this concludes my first blog post. Thanks for reading if you happened to!